Hello friends!!!!
Well today's blog is kinda personal as it marks my birth anniversary!
Yay!! happy birthday to me...ee....
**singing awkwardly**
It took me a lot of time and thinking whether to post this blog or not as I don't know how well it goes with the theme of my blog but anyways here I go!!!!
My thoughts on celebrating Birthday?
I am not a birthday person and I don't like to celebrate my birthday much, I just shut myself every year on 4th of May, kinda avoid everyone's call and text messages (Normal in my case, I guess). I don't like receiving any gifts too as I am very awkward person 😬
There has been only one incident well technically two I had been out on my birthday with my friends, first one (Year 2017) was a mandatory one as I just joined the office and HR was unable to grant me any leave because I already took 2 unplanned leaves (I had my reasons, Okay!), Second one Arghhh!! I don't remember, maybe I will after somedays, sometimes my memory box just won't work.
The most expensive birthday party I ever gave was in a fancy restaurant chain to two of my very good friends and I don't know if ₹**** is expensive or not, as I had no prior experience of giving any birthday parties!
Ughh! I am distracting myself from why I am writing this blog, it has purpose my friends, it is kind of a thank you note or you can say heartfelt note to two of my exceptional humans!
First of all let me take you guys back to the summer of 2018.
I specifically remember it was my birthday and two of my friends asked me if I wanted to meet them and I was like ya okay let's meet up.
So we did meet on 6th of May 2018, these are the two people I gave party to, you see I don't meet up people on my birthdays, and if I ever did, man you are one lucky person or maybe I am, no arguments there!
Distractions, ughh! Moving ahead, I guess we met almost after long two years, and we talked about old times and how we were currently doing in our lives a little catching up was going on. Best evening!
After several days later my friend Ruchi randomly asked me if I wanted to meet up our another friend with whom I almost lost all contacts with and I was like yeah why not!
I remember it was 7th of June 2018, when we three finally met, our lives were never the same, again!
Why?
Hmm.. I was in this dark depression mode, there were many reasons - I'll share these in some other blog oneday! One of the main reason were my friends to whom I wanted to say, ' Get the fuck out of my face', but me being this good human being I am, I did not tell them so and instead had enough patience to tolerate them but I was losing myself because they were so toxic, I always felt, just because I was vulnerable and kind and did not mind much they kinda took advantage of it, whenever I was being reasonable they turned the tables on me and make me look bad if I was the one to blame. I was just being patient, observing and doing nothing I am more of a "chuck it" person, I never said anything because I know words can damage people (how cool I thought back then, huh!) and was being a good friend who was always there for them.
'This' made me a dead empty person, I started having trust issues my social circle became even smaller my hangouts were minimal I was not talking to anyone and I became the worst communicator ever (I was bad, but became worst), gosh! how pathetic I was in my second job for like a year I was behaving as if no one around me existed. I isolated myself to a horrible extent. I never took lunch break with my team or spoke to them (which I don't regret, anyhow). What was I becoming into? A ghost? Or an Empty vessel? Lol I would never know!
Moving on...
Well after our first meet onwards, we started to hangout every weekend, we had our own world we lived in and we became emotionally connected to each other because we had same rough patch with our dear ones. How people who we thought of the most all the time we wanted them to be remembered less and less as the time passed by. Life as we know it! We instantly got connected because we were travel freaks!
In our third meet I guess we started to plan a trip for a gateway from all the things we all were going through and needed some "Me" time with self.
In our fourth meet we were narrowing down the countries and in the end we finally were left with two but we chose Indonesia for many reasons. As it was our first international trip we did not go by ourselves instead we booked our trip through Yatra.com and the trip was hence booked after having many altercation with budget and everything, we finally flew to Bali, Indonesia in the first week of December 2018.
It was the best first international trip ever.
I would definitely jot down my mesmerizing experience in future blogs for sure because there are so many of them.
What all this has to do with my Birthday?
I was this sad depressed human in the summer of 2018 but I guess my birthday wish made it all go away!
Hey Ruchi, PRG if you are reading this blog than let me tell u guys you were the bestest thing happened to me in the year 2018.
You guys made me believe in me, taught me self love, taught me about how everyone has flaws but those flaws is what makes us who we are, you made me believe in love, trust in existence, hope in humanity again.
Thanks for being a good listener, a supporter, always calm and full of life and hopes. Thank you for making me laugh often when I almost forgot to do so. Thank you for re-introducing me to what I have always loved the most - Travel!
Something to Remember: Always have faith in your life journey as your destiny will definitely take you where "YOU" belong no matter where you are in life, all you need is 'Patience'!
No matter where we are in life, i hope we'll always stay connected somehow and find our way back to each other.
Sending all good wishes and happiness!
Happy Birthday To Me!
2020 is tough for everyone but it is working for me, anyways!
See you in the next blog.
Ciao!
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